6b1: started blogging

It's not easy to make the students blog..they just cannot see the importance of it yet...i really need them at least have the hands on experience in using the blogs...insyaAllah they will improve their language and be more motivated to learn English...honestly, i put a high hope for the lower 6 students this year...they just do wonders to my life...

A Tiring Journey..to and from UUM

When u really want to do something, u'll do it...going to uum to attend the 3rd cllqm..smtms i did think, am i doing the right thing??? being surrounded by the people who are also students at my age(and some of the are even older) makes me be more motivated to proceed with my phd journey. It's a long journey...but i really hope all my sweat, time and money spent will worth the sacrifices i make..Ya Allah , ease my way to fulfil my dreams..ease my way in my studies..ease my way to go till the end....

I also hope..this will at least inspire my students to keep on studying and struggling to be the best..nobody can control ourselves, we need to be able to do it ourselves..remember..THE HERO IS IN OURSELVES...SEARCH FOR THE HERO AND BE ONE...

6b1: in the process of creating group blogs

Gosh...the girls are just too afraid of the boys..some of them of course....:) In the midst of creating blogs, i can see their characteristics...some are helpful, some are just too selfish, some are confident...some are in theri own world...

Girls n boys...one day you'll see the importance of having blogs in your learning, u are going to enjoy the learning while practising your language..insyaAllah, i really hope your language will improve soon...ciaaooo....

stress...STRESS...stress

Just ou of a sudden, my shoulder ached and the pain was inexplicable...sakit giler..feeling like the world come tumbling on me....oooouuuucccchhhhh....

I have to let go of 5 C and 6B1...just couldnt stand the pain...luckily my buddies all there, helping, massaging and giving moral support...i m just too lucky to have them with me...tq kak naimah, soh, azanah, jamaliah, amrina, asma', the list just couldnt stop.....thank u Allah for sending this bunch of kind-hearted people to me..

i guess...this happens because of STRESS..MY BODY AND MIND JUST NEED A REST...REALLY..I NEED A REST..

SCHOOL HOLIDAYS : resting or wrestling???

The best part in a teacher's life: school holidays and what makes it better if u manage to complete marking before the days come.....what a heaven..

That was the impression that came to my mind b4 the holidays started...but the reality is that..im not resting but im wrestling...wrestling???u might be puzzled with this, but that is the truth..im wrestling against time to complete my proposal (which at times i feel like crying).....im wrestling w my kids to make them do their work and to keep their rooms clean (although only 3 of them...) and im wrestling w my emotion to entertain my inner self that it's ok to have the home vacation because amir is not well...still...deep down inside my heart...im wrestling w my feeling..longing to go for a holiday...

See...the school holiday became so packed for me...it made me breathless...Gosh...i just wish for a better holidays next time, Insya Allah

To all my beloved students..enjoy your holidays because when the school reopens, the real battle for the exam will start...ciaoo....

6b1/2011-First Presentation

They really hit it today...i didnt overestimate them..they really have something to offer to me for this coming MUET....In one day, they managed to come out with a presentation..they managed to control the stage...they managed to put aside their feeling of nervous...THEY ROCK....I just love these ss....(i really wish they will stay put to form 6..i am excited to have them..i feel i can do a lot of things with them...:), a bit of selfish i guess because they might want to go to politechnic, uitm..kist..masterskill...bla....bla...)

Uthman...a unique character that i hope to know better as we sail along MUET classes...Amin..a nver changed funny character..the girls from 5Ga...i expected better from u girls....Ilman n Taufik....change dear..be more brave...A Din..u've the right attitude, we try to woe on your language k....The boys from 5BT...all of U rock....keep it up...Faez (Muiz's buddy) ha..ha..ha...u'll go far with this attitude...

The other boys and girls especially from SMK Long Ghafar..yet to know all of u..

I really hope we are going to enjoy our class together....C the best group at the canteen tomorrow....Adios...

Welcome LOwer 6/2011

Gosh...70 per class...crazy lot, right?? I really hope that they will go out slowly...to ipta, for rayuan...i dont think i can manage the class with that number of students...adusss....thought it's going to be like a collge life..but..this is too jam-packed....could i handle it effectively????

Exam time...Kalut pulak

MOdul 2...Timetable padat giler ...as usual, the first week...3/4 slots in a day...TAA is incharge of doing the timetable...and we are lucky enough to hv 7 trainees from upsi...

story 1: "semua slot yg ada nama saya tu, tukar dgn bdk upsi ye..."

story 2 : Adik upsi dh jaga 2 jam 15 min, dtg pulak MADAM BESAR suruh tlg jg sejam lagi utk kelas dia...it ends up, that adik kena jaga 3j 15 min..giler kan...

CIKGU LAMA NI SOMETIMES BANYAK ONAR LA JGK....AKU YG TGK TAA DOK BUAT JADUAL PUN DH PENING...ORG LAIN SENANG JE NAK OVER RULE..APA DA...

But now, aku akui kata k Jah satu masa dulu..."makin besar jawatan kita pegang, makin kita terlupa bumi yg kita pijak...makin tak reti nak jg hati kawan, sebab semua org kita nampak macm orang suruhan, kita sering lupa, kita dulu pun, pernah berada di tempat itu..."

Besar sgt ke kita ni???? kalau bg arahan dgn lembut, lebih senang orang mengikut, bagi arahan dengan muka masam n kelat, makin lah org nak buat ilat...tak tahulah aku..kalau tak mampu, jgn terima jawatan....kawan2 pun ada perasaaan, jgn anggap kita je yg betul, kita je yg tau agama...org lain pun ada perasaan...cermin diri dulu..takkan orang lain kena hormat kita melebihi pengetua???? fikir2kanlah...jgn sampai org lain berdosa sebab perangai kita yang adakalanya tak rasional...fikir, fikirkanlah.....

Bowling @ Malacca (MITC)

Nice experience...tiring but because of Dieyna, i gathered all the strength that i have...a surprise..she came out to be top 10 for single under 12...budak nakal yang comel momel..(just like the mother..perasan giler..)

Kelantan team mmg giler..bawak pulaqk minah seorang ni dari kononnya sekolah sukan...mlm cikgu tdo, dia start merayap...jumpa pakwe dari wilayah..tak ke penat nak jaga...susah kalau ditimpa perasaan ni..main boling ala kadar jer..target nak cari boyfriend tu yg giler...lagi satu..asal makan, nak suruh org belanja...asal makan najk makan orang..ada juga spesies ni hidup dalam team..

XX...susah nak cerita, aku rasa ada cinta bersemi dalam team..siap hntr barang kat bilik pompuan lagi..yg lakinya nmpak jiwang abis, yg pompuannya siap sempat ambik no tel jantan lain lagi...sapa makan sapa ni???sapa yg bodoh??atau resamnya, lelaki akan kalah pada perempuan cun???aduhh...g outing di bandar melaka..suruh jln pompuan dgn pompuan..dibantainya tgk wayang...couple tarak otak betul la...jiwang tak kena tempat...

KAlau makbapak campur tgn, mmg team akan punah ranah..ada yg nak kontrol anak sendiri, mengalahkan nak anak wakil malaysia..main emo...habis player lain emo..baru kenal boling 2 tahun ni dah kalut mcm pro..tak tahan aku..anak muka tension mcm botol kicap jer...mak n ayah mcm pegang remote control...nk bina team spitit pun susah...yg penting anak dia jer...giler betul la.....

Anyway, it's still a pleasant trip w u guys...all these add to the knowledge n experience..make me be a thinker actually...WELCOME PENANG 2012

EXAM TIME...kalut ribut

PKBS 1...pening kepala aku nak menyusun jadual..mmg padat giler...3-5 slot sehari...tahan telinga aje lah dge cikgu2 bersungut masa menjaga yg byk...dah terpaksa...

mmg kalut ribut waktu pagi...but that is the best part to be the s/u...u got the power...apa aku peduli, suka hati akulah,,,nak letak siapa jaga, berapa jam jaga...i cracked my brain to prepare for the time table...any argument???? buat sendiri lah kawan2 oii....

Teenagers and love...

3 couples were caught beside the girl's toilet...kissing...wow...these ss are advanced...bestnya the couples are form 4 vs 2...form 4 vs 4....all of them are from the "honeymoon" years. Adoi la adik2 kesayanganku...tak ke mananya cinta yg berlandaskan nafsu...k Pah rasanya dah habis ayat buat keluar...dari bodoh pah ke keting sampailah muka serupa mok teh timoh jual etok...actually i like the terms she used when dealing with all these problematic ss though smtms personally i think she can be over the board...but that is her style and till nw, i guess, pn sherry is the best disciplinary teacher.....she just know what to say and when to say it...such a gifted person.

Coming back to the story:
A >> this minah from 4A actually got my attention at first, manja, comel....but then, slowly her true colours emerge...she couldnt control herself when it involves boys and he just does not have respect to anybody including teachers...for her the most important thing in life is her..and herself..nobody else...aku penat mnelayan this kind of person and start to ignore her...cannot stand her....if i keep treating her, the others will be left behind..as mush as possible she tried to catch everybody's attention...lack of attention from the family??? susah nak cakap...i dont think so, she comes from a well-to-do family ... dunno...just dunno what to say...This minah admitted to k PAh she did the "action of kissing" blkg kelas and also di tangga toilet...adoi...minah ni mmg daring because when she said that...u could not see any sign of fear or regret on her face...this is what i kol as SELAMBA ROCK GILER....

B >> This budak-comel boy also from the same class as A (not A's partner anyway)....He is the boy who threw out my marker pen when that marker was out of ink...he is the boy who gave me that threatening look when i started say bad words to him due to his action (INGAT AKU TAKUT..MUKA COMEL NAK TUNJUK SAMSENG....TAK ADA MAKNANYA..SEKALI AKU SEKEH, MASUK LONGKANG BDK NI :)) . Just knew the form 2 girl for a week...bdk perempuan tu daring sangat, tarik B and terus kiss dia....(geram kot..sebab B ni mmg lelaki jambu)....k pah settled with B...tapi kpah pun susah nak marah dgn this boy..the innocent look kills..

K PAH..KITA NI NAK DAPAT CUCU PULAK KE???

meeting "lembu", meeting "tan"...aku hilang ije...

Feb 14, 2011: had another meeting to finalyse Tan's retirement ceremony..i guess it's going the most grand retirement ceremony held in this school for an ordinaryu teacher who is very rare at school and i guess not everybody realised his presence but...he is our boss's pet, so the ceremony has to be grand...whatever...as the committee member of the staff club, we will implement it as perfect as possible...

March 5, after 11 years of being at smkkk2 this is the first time we are going to hold a grand maulidurrasul celebration...2 ekor lembu disembelih...k pah in charged of the rempah, k asmaa of the lembu with saupi (our pibg committee members"..the others...k ja, k jah, k nah, k ati, and others will be the "jong kalut..." Aku???? samalah tu, in the same boat la...

In the middle of the meeting, i got a call from k na ije, ije collapsed n tak sedar diri d husm...i didnt know hoe to react...rushing to husm, i just could peep through the mirror, the doctors were busy attending to him, i could see sweat on his forehead, i could see his face..my dear, beloved brother....at 330, i went back home to perorm my zohor prayer, went back to huism at 5, to ccu. i recited yassin...i held his hand, i whisper3ed to him..."Je, kalau baiklah untuk mung hidup, fight je, fight tapi kalau baiklah untukmu pergi, pergilah dgn mudah...aku syg kan kamu...." When i met dr Awang, he mentioned that the chance was too slim, only 20%....what can i say???? due to tight procedure at ccu, i decided to go back home, leaving abah and mek na at the hospital...at 1210 am, i kol mek na just to hear her say..."ning, je tak dok doh..." ya Allah, kenapa aku tak tunggu di hospital??????YA Allah kenapa aku balik???? Ya Allah.....that was my destiny..what can i say..until now, i regretted why wasnt i there, there must be smthng that Allah wants me to learn....apa kah dia????

Alfatihah buat ije, the most rugged and open minded brother....he was always be there for me..but now??????

4A-2011>>the loudest

After so many years of not teaching f4, here i am again, teching the best class of art...Ya Allah...they are so noisy, i just couldnt control them . They keep talking n talking as if they have millions of things to talk about...and their voice...gosh...louder than the speaker...

Last week, one mamat from this class, a nice looking boy was very excited in my class...he kept talking and talking and when i asked him to write the answer on the board, he willingly came our but suddenly the marker pen dried up...to my shock, he just threw out the marker pen into the drain..THE MARKER PEN WAS MINE..MINE..AND HE THREW IT IN FRONT OF ME...I just couldnt control my anger...APALAH T******, BE*****, b*****, HE WAS SHOCKED , actually i was shocked too..it was a spontaneous reaction....He refused to look at my face..but he kept grumbling which made me angrier...

This mamat didnt urn up for my following class and on the third day, he came in but didnt do anything, i could see he was looking at me when i was teaching other ss...let him be...on the fourth day, he came in and did my work, but stil refused looking at me.at last, i talked to him nicely...end of this storm in the cup...i hope....

really, teaching teaches me to be a patient person, still my patience has the limit, anyway...marah cikgu sekejap saja, the fire will not last long...i luv u 4A...ALTHOUGH U ARE NOISY..NOISY N NOISY....

I'M NOT a ROBOT!!!!!!!

Tension giler..looking at the time table..26 periods..form 4,5 and 6...ada yg sampai 8 periods/day...are they crazy of am i too fussy???? Halloooo...im teaching English dear...i have to mark essays..i have to prepare the materials...i have to go through the ss' journals..lainlah kalauaku sekadar periksa buku bdk dan tulis "seen" atu "dilihat". Form 6 40 minutes/period>>on sunday 5 periods straight...from 1040 till 2pm...robot pakaibatteries everyday sure mampus...aku yg pakai energizer sure semput...tak dok tolak ansur ke???The best part on Tuesday i only have a period to teach....what an imbalanced time table..nk bersuara pada siapa lagi??? Last year, i encountered the same problem,,,it went to the drain without anysolution...2011>>three levels f4, 5 and 6...bukan drain lagilah...i will drown in the bermuda triangle....nobodyto save me....masing2 buat muka sardin dlm tin kemek...aaaaaaaa.......is it a sin tome if i teach only to the energy that i have, rather than forcing myself...tgk jadual cikgu f6 lain giler punya relax...dapat AP agi...tunggakan ribu2...tu je kerja???? Apara.....what an unfair business...malas lah nak pikir..buat sakit otak je....for those up there, who is with the power...please be more considerate...mana tutorial mana kuliah???sama je...if the lecture is done, the classes are combined,barulah aku nmpk practicalnya jadual f6..ni tak..ada yg boleh berbual sepanjang hari (mengajar 1 masa/hari); ada yg blh hias file mcm nak buat pameran antarabangsa...aku...nak tulis buku rekod pun tak sempat....hallooo...please open up your eyes and your mind dear authority...im not a robot....